CD19 & anxious

Ugh, I don't know what my problem is today. Just feeling very anxious to know what this cycle will bring....either AF or a +. I am forcing myself to wait until AF is due (12/1/10) to test because of the HCG shot I received. I don't want it to be a false positive from the hormones. Really, I just want to know either way. Obviously + would be the best option here, but knowing either way would help at this point. Praying for release of the anxiety of the 2ww and also comfort & peace in knowing I'm not in control of it anyway regardless. Thank you all for following/listening. Stay tuned, 9 more days for details, or sooner or later depending on what may come of this month!!

Well....11/17/10

I had my CD14 u/s today which showed only 1 follicle up to par on my left ovary and it measured 22mm. While I was disappointed there was only 1, the tech reassured me that it only takes one to make a baby (good point Francie)!! She said my uterine lining looked perfect and since I had one good follicle, I received 250mcg Ovidrel injected subcutaneous to release that follicle. Now onto the next 3 days of BD and then the 2ww. Good thoughts, hopes, prayers, anything will help from anyone at this point and I greatly appreciate it ahead of time!! I am happy for what may come of this yet sad for a dear friend who will be officially not pregnant as of tomorrow morning. I got to see her at the RE's office though as our appts allowed us to cross paths which made my heart smile even on her sad day!

God is good and I am starting to realize a small part of the purpose this infertility is serving. I have gone out of my comfort zone to attend Tiny Purpose's monthly meetings with another friend who has suffered great loss and have met and become close to many girls from that group. God is expanding my horizons, now I hope he moves on to expanding my household!! :) December 1st is the day to keep on your minds, that will either be the day AF shows her ugly face or the day I call the office to get my pregnancy test done!! Either way, I'm excited, hopeful and trying to keep positive!! :)

Back to reality

Well, we got home late last night from Mexico. Kinda bittersweet! We had a great time with awesome friends and I loved every minute of it, but it's always nice to be back home. And the fact that it's not snowing and freezing helps too :)

Today is CD6 and day 4 of the femara, I'm calling to schedule my day 14 u/s and hopefully that day things will look good and I'll get my injection and move forward. We'll see. Busy couple months with activities coming up, which will be good to keep us sidetracked.

Looking forward to lots of family and friends and fun!!

Hopefully only good news to share next month!

11/4/10

Happy 30th Birthday to my hubby today!! And Congratulations to Justin & Michelle VanAndel as we were witnesses to a beautiful beach ceremony in Riviera Maya, Mexico today!!

Tomorrow we are doing a multi-adventure for 8 hrs which includes repelling, zip line, and snorkeling....a little nervous but really excited, should be a great time! :)

I unfortunately hate today in a different way because AF showed her ugly face, so it was a sad start to the day, but thankfully many other happy things going on to distract me. So saturday (day 3) i will be starting my first cycle of femara. Will call when we get back to the US to schedule my day 14 u/s and hopefully will get my Ovidrel shot that same day & BD in hopes of a successful cycle!!

Right now, cramping in front and back, and feeling irritated and sad. But thankfully I have the best hubby to keep me focused in the right direction and offer me unconditional support and love!!

Stay tuned.....